Week 37 Wrap Up and Doubts

Another week has passed. Life happened and very poor excuses were made this past week. I'm pretty disappointed in myself with a couple days of not working out when I should've. But it's a new week and back to the grind. Just because a few poor days happened doesn't give me a reason to give up. A new day is a new start. So I will keep going and try to work harder to make up for the days I missed. Nutrition has still been good, though. I've been sticking with that, even when I missed a few workouts.

I started working at a restaurant. I was a little nervous to start, but I like it so far. Since I started 2 weeks ago, every day I work doesn't feel like work. I don't leave there exhausted or angry or discontented. This is one of the first times I've felt like that in my working career. The only other time I have felt that way was when I was previously working in the food industry. It makes me feel more confident that the food industry is where I'm supposed to be.

I just finished my last class today, and I'll be honest, I started freaking out a little bit. Classes are done (as long as I pass them....I should be getting my final grades in the next few weeks). With classes done, it means real life is officially starting. The job at the restaurant in which I'm working now will be great experience to get my feet wet. I took this job because the owner of the restaurant is going on vacation in a few months and needs someone to run the restaurant while she's out. It'll be great experience to be able to do this and feel what it's like to actually run an establishment. The opportunity arose and I seized it.

Not too long ago, I found this necklace and ended up having to buy it because I couldn't stop thinking about it, even after I walked away from it. It's a mustard seed that is surrounded by resin. And it's a really great reminder for me. There's a well-known verse that says "even if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, nothing is impossible." (Plus, it's a mustard seed...food related...duh) It's a really great reminder to keep it around my neck. If I have faith, nothing is impossible. During my slight freak out, doubt started to creep into my mind. There are some possibilities that have come up recently that could be an official start to my career. And doubt started. So, I wrote myself a letter (sometimes you just have to write yourself a letter. It's highly therapeutic. I recommend everyone do it sometime). Here it is:

Dear Me,

Life has been changing for you lately. Between starting your journey of weight loss, choosing to follow your passion of cooking and quit your secure job to go back to school, there are a lot of uncertainties you are currently dealing with. You just finished your last class with school, which then starts a whole new chapter in your life. I know you’re starting to freak out a little bit, and while it’s ok to have a little fear of the unknown, do not let it control your. Let that fear push you to do amazing things. You’re capable to do what you want to do and what you’re supposed to do and deep down you know you’re meant to do great things. You are not the norm; you don’t find comfort in complacency. You can’t just sit back in a cubicle and watch the world go by. You know life is meant to be lived to its fullest. So seize any opportunity you have in order to make that happen, no matter how much fear you feel. You know to follow your gut; you know what you’re supposed to do. Because I know this, trust me when I say the following:

Don’t let doubt take over. Doubt has no room is your life anymore. You’ve lived with it before and you’ve seen how it has hindered you. You’ve fought the feelings of doubt in other parts of your life and you’ve seen how it has positively impacted your life. There is no room for “What-ifs.” If one of those “what-ifs” creep deep enough into your thoughts, it will tear down any determination you have. “What if it doesn’t work out?” Well, if it’s not meant to happen through one avenue, it will happen through another avenue. You know what is supposed to happen. You know what you’re meant to do. Pursue it with ZERO doubt. Pursue it with confidence. Pursue it with determination. Pursue it with hope. Don’t allow the doubting “what-ifs” that others may be feeling have any effect on your hope and determination.

You got this, girl! So take a DEEP breath, remind yourself that the hard work to reach success is just beginning, and continue taking those leaps of faith to make your dreams a reality. You don’t always have to take “no” for an answer. And when those hurdles come along (because you know they will), jump those hurdles and keep going. Any roadblocks you hit, don’t be afraid to take a couple turns to get back on track toward your destination. You’re strong enough to do this. You’ve had enough experience in your past to be able to conquer anything. Do all you do with faith and confidence. You can do it. Deep down, I know you can.

Love,

Me

 There's no room for doubts in anyone's life. Don't let the shadow of doubt ever stop you from doing what you have to do in order to be who you're supposed to be.